Won’t He do it!

Dear late twenties me,

If you focused on yourself instead of running after them damn boys, then you… wouldn’t be who you are today. *sigh* Personal development 101. Let me just tell you looks were not everything. The treatment you allowed from these men were disgusting. You were out here trying to make life lessons your husband. Every. Time.

It wasn’t joy it was delusion.

How many times do you really need the lesson? LOL

I found a journal you had from back in the day and I’m going to burn them first thing. Out here making these nobodies the center of your world and look where they at now! I had to drop down to my knees and thank God. Also to stretch, because yoga is where it’s at for you. You’ll stop for a bit but then come right back to it, so you might as well see it thru.

Yeah girl, I didn’t go snooping for the journals of delulu, we’re currently packing to move into your boyfriend’s apartment and I came across them. *you read right*

Yes, you really are with someone who deeply cares about you, and everything is literally joy and laughter. Tough-ish times here and there, but nothing you haven’t managed as a team. A real team!

Girl, I’m telling you! You moved back to Texas and everything in your personal life aligned. Don’t fret.

Your “love story” was not in New York, that’s probably why you were asking God to pick up the pen. Like HE didn’t know? Won’t He do it!

You opened your spaces and really tried making homes for men who weren’t ready for it yet wanted to enjoy it while they could. You clung to made up stories in your head of what these guys could be. It wasn’t reality. It was trauma, and we’re working on it, but that’s all it was. It was you wanting to create the loving relationship you didn’t see consistently growing up. Don’t go beating up those guys either, because they have their own trauma to work out. (if they’re even aware of it)

You know how we would always see those quotes about, “The right one will make you see why all the others didn’t work”? Or something like that. It’s so true. We’ve aligned with someone just as thoughtful, kind, and generous. Life is so good.

I know I probably started this off scolding you, but sometimes you need tough love to see the picture. You are worthy of so much more and you are enough, just as you are.

We remember it now and life is so good.

Love,

33 year old you